Note to self...
Because you're young and still learning, let me be straight with you: Right now you need a reality check and a grown-up time-out. And that's ok. There's dignity in knowing why and being ok with it. Coming down from being in performance mode for an extended period of time is hard. Just cuddle up, go back into your cocoon, pamper yourself a little, give yourself a lot of grace, and hibernate from the mess for a week, knowing that you'll come out and deal with it all again soon enough. You don't need to explain yourself to anyone or feel the need to make excuses or blame certain circumstances or get angry with yourself over it. This is just how you are. And that's ok. No need to make a big deal about it or wonder if something's wrong with you or try to suck life out of those around you in an attempt to deal with it. Just take a hot minute to cool down and teach your-emotionally-introverted-self how to breathe again, you crazy, over-achieving pianist.
Shhhh... it's gonna be ok.
And by the way, this is how it's done gracefully, both now and in the future. You can do it.
Night-night.
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